The Premier

So I've had this blog bouncing around in my head for quite a few weeks, but with all the hullabaloo of school ending and the holidays, I just haven't had the time to sit down and type it out till just about...now.

Being engaged, being betrothed is an odd sensation. It's an inbetween period, a limbo, a transitioning step. You gain new freedoms and boundaries, new questions and assurances. It is completely overwhelming and yet simply happy at the same time. Basically, your head decides to implode and explode at the same time creating this lovely rouge to the outside world that it is simply floating naturally above your shoulders as it always has. Everyone has advice, a book, a recommendation, or a name to give. There's about 200, 000 intricacies to plan about the wedding and 7 zillion different ways to offend someone by the way you plan them. And all this is happening while you are simultaneously attempting to prepare yourself for the marriage after the wedding.

And all you really want to do is be with the man you love...for the rest of your life.
All this chaos just seems very unnecessary, bothersome, and painful.

But there is purpose to it. There is a distinct need for it.
Maybe not for the 700 emails I've written to photographers or for the obscene prices of chairs...
but I do believe that this time of "engagement" is indeed very necessary.

It's funny because I used to ask myself: If God wanted us to be with Him, if He loves us so much, if Earth is just this sin-rampant, horrendous place...why upon our salvation, upon our acceptance of His proposal, upon our realization of His sacrifice and want to be one with him...why can't we just be taken up into the heavens with him? Why do we have this transition period, why must we stay on Earth?

This is the church's engagement period to God, my engagement to Christ...
this inbetween, transition time between my acceptance of His proposal for eternal life in Him, and the fulfillment of that promise when I die.
Yes, at times it seems painful and bothersome...and all you really want to do is be with Him, to love and be loved by Him for the the rest of eternity...
but this engagement period IS pivotal, IS needed, IS worthwhile.

I'm learning all of this through my engagement to Steve. I've learned so much in just these last 2 months, and it's helping me realize, helping me see the purpose in my engagement to Christ.
I love it.
More later...I think it'll take a good lifetime or so to explore this concept ;)